Merry Christmas -- Happy New Year .... I pray 2005 brings you to a place you wish to be.
Another year comes to a close. These holidays have been hectic and full of things to do.
Cruise: 9 days to go and I can rest with no unwanted interruptions. Warn Sunshine and water coupled with good fun and fun. Life can't get any better.
Camelot: Another source of stress these last few weeks. It shouldn't have come down to what happened but as in life some people never grow up and others haven't learned the value of trust and being honest with people. Could I have stayed? Yes, but it was killing my fun being there, I was tired of watching my back, and my writing muse was being choked to death because I was spending more time keeping the kiddies pointed in the right direction and not role playing. Now I have a new home where things are the way they should be ... fun and enjoyable.
I first thought I would go down the list of names and how happy I was being their friend and how much I looked forward to spending another year with them. Well, everyone consider it said! But at the same, I forgive them that showed me how immature, untrusting and just a down right liar they were this past year. For them, I forgive you but don't get in my way for I will step on you for taking something dear to me.
Church: The christmas concert was great. So many great solo's, readings, and choir music. It was fun as we told the story of Christ's birth.
Yes, I am politically incorrect. For I am a christian, and wishing someone a "Merry Christmas" is part of me. When will we stop bashing Christ's children? Then again, we ought to expect this since the World has tried to do this since God started this whole thing.
He made this country great and now as repayment we turn our back. How, by outlawing prayer in many places, outlawing monuments to his glory, killing (aborting) his precious ones before they can reach this world, celebrating same sex marriage, taking us to court for any thing we do in his name such as singing Christmas carols at school. Go ahead, drag this great country to the lowest depths, deny him and mock him. The last laugh will be on you and his pity nonexistant.
Oh ... by the way .... MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
P.S. I promise to be more regular with my writings.
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
I wonder why
Petersen got Death for a death the evidence said he did but no one saw him do.
Meanwhile in Washington D.C, a High School student shoots another to death with many witnesses right in the school and all he gets is three minor charges like possession of a gun (Duh! did he use a finger to make the bullet hole?) and assault. The other charge escapes me.
Isn't this the same charges you would get for just being caught with a firearm on school property? So the corollary must be there is no difference, so next time you carry one to school, go ahead, kill someone because it is a freebie for the charge is the same.
But, killing someone in cold blooded murder .. he was threatened and came back with a gun to take care of the problem. Surely life must be worth something and the taker of that life held accountable for it. Whoa! I forgot, killing an unborn child is ok. How silly of me to forget such a trivial matter.
That's it. The student was threatened. Petersen was only foolin around and needed the path clear. No wonder I was confused. Getting mad and killing is ok, abortion is ok, Homosexuality is ok, Christianity is bad and Adultry is bad but Pornography is good.
I am proud of myself for clearing the air and finding such a simple solution .. With this kind of sound logic by the citizens of this fine city I can't figure why D.C. doesn't have representation. They seem just like every other City in the United States except for Redwood City .. I am proud to be an American ...
Meanwhile in Washington D.C, a High School student shoots another to death with many witnesses right in the school and all he gets is three minor charges like possession of a gun (Duh! did he use a finger to make the bullet hole?) and assault. The other charge escapes me.
Isn't this the same charges you would get for just being caught with a firearm on school property? So the corollary must be there is no difference, so next time you carry one to school, go ahead, kill someone because it is a freebie for the charge is the same.
But, killing someone in cold blooded murder .. he was threatened and came back with a gun to take care of the problem. Surely life must be worth something and the taker of that life held accountable for it. Whoa! I forgot, killing an unborn child is ok. How silly of me to forget such a trivial matter.
That's it. The student was threatened. Petersen was only foolin around and needed the path clear. No wonder I was confused. Getting mad and killing is ok, abortion is ok, Homosexuality is ok, Christianity is bad and Adultry is bad but Pornography is good.
I am proud of myself for clearing the air and finding such a simple solution .. With this kind of sound logic by the citizens of this fine city I can't figure why D.C. doesn't have representation. They seem just like every other City in the United States except for Redwood City .. I am proud to be an American ...
A Surreal World
Camelot:
A day I have dreaded for so long. Blackhawke fell in battle. Perhaps his heart wasn't with him and his reflexes dulled by distractions of the Court of Camelot. Perhaps it was a sense of failure as his closest friend was hurt badly and fell back off the frontline, his wife was besieged by people bent on tearing her down since Blackhawke was more than their equal and he failed to be there at the right time or perhaps it was the confusion and darkness that clouded camelot. No matter the reason his star blinks no more. His dying breath was to order the formation of the Council and pass the mantle of Guardian to his successor.
A day I have dreaded for so long. Blackhawke fell in battle. Perhaps his heart wasn't with him and his reflexes dulled by distractions of the Court of Camelot. Perhaps it was a sense of failure as his closest friend was hurt badly and fell back off the frontline, his wife was besieged by people bent on tearing her down since Blackhawke was more than their equal and he failed to be there at the right time or perhaps it was the confusion and darkness that clouded camelot. No matter the reason his star blinks no more. His dying breath was to order the formation of the Council and pass the mantle of Guardian to his successor.
Sunday, December 12, 2004
Tears of the Heart
I did something I never really wanted to do but after some 6 1/2 years I have closed the doors of #Camelot. It was like shutting off a piece of your heart ... a dream interrupted. But it was getting so that no one could enter that world of fantasy without some pain. The muses were dying quickly and the irc chat was taking over in the form of costumed chatter. We were becoming tied up and consumed by the search for exacting correctness in our characters.
It became more important to argue the meaning of an action, fight over whether something could or could not have happened. Characters became shallow as they abided by the laws to avoid being scolded. Even the characters themselves changed as they found new role models in the flicker of the video world. They drew on demi-gods and brought them back so they could have the power they needed to get the upper hand. Raiders from the news worlds came at night stealing our people with promises of fun and equality.
I have searched trying to find that elusive line in the logs where it all went wrong. The experienced ones expected role play from the new ones that they didn't know how to do.
Did I find that line? No, but it helped to see some changes. I prided myself on a having the finest channel operators in all the world. But in the end, even they succumbed, some to power and others to their own ends, and then started their battles. I had thought that stuff had been forever buried in the old Dalnet world. I guess you can only stay on top so long before age, time, and success bring you back to the common world.
I saw people I loved and cared deeply for argue with me and others. That hurt because the falling of Camelot was personal now. Before we seemed to weather these times but now the lightening struck home. A book that I dearly love says, a house divided can not stand. At this point Camelot was becoming a deep pain. How do you stop pain that comes from within. Villians and enemies I can fight but when your own leaders are divided you seem so helpless. When the Citizens see this they hide to weather the storm out and those with ill will to Camelot spring forward to slay this Unicorn of Dreams.
Have I lost Camelot? No, for deep inside my heart is that misty place every good knight goes to do good and save mankind. To ride his white horse and whisk the beautiful damsel from harm. But for protection, I shove it deeper inside and like the magic of this medium, I turn the machine off and stop its madness.
Where do we go from here? I truly am at a lost. I hear both sides but I don't hear the committment. We talk, we plan, we make changes and in some cases we even compromise our beliefs to try and help. Where is it , who or what took it from us? I made a promise so many years ago to the man who started this dream in another universe (Dalnet) that I would defend it and protect it with my very life. Right now I feel I have failed and in some way through friendly fire I have hurt the place I so love to be. Now as a wounded lion, I do as I think I should and protect it the best I can though the actions are harsh. I turn the lights off, lock the doors, batten the windows and hide it in the midst of my heart till such time a sliver of warming light brings it to life. Until that day, all I hear are the bagpipes of the Scottish Highlands echo that call to the Clans for I am dead.
It became more important to argue the meaning of an action, fight over whether something could or could not have happened. Characters became shallow as they abided by the laws to avoid being scolded. Even the characters themselves changed as they found new role models in the flicker of the video world. They drew on demi-gods and brought them back so they could have the power they needed to get the upper hand. Raiders from the news worlds came at night stealing our people with promises of fun and equality.
I have searched trying to find that elusive line in the logs where it all went wrong. The experienced ones expected role play from the new ones that they didn't know how to do.
- The new ones wanted a style of role play the experienced ones knew not of.
- The experienced ones grew up and started in a world controlled by dice and miniatures and character sheets.
- The new ones were born of the video age .. the mega villians that required nearly god like heroes to defeat them.
Did I find that line? No, but it helped to see some changes. I prided myself on a having the finest channel operators in all the world. But in the end, even they succumbed, some to power and others to their own ends, and then started their battles. I had thought that stuff had been forever buried in the old Dalnet world. I guess you can only stay on top so long before age, time, and success bring you back to the common world.
I saw people I loved and cared deeply for argue with me and others. That hurt because the falling of Camelot was personal now. Before we seemed to weather these times but now the lightening struck home. A book that I dearly love says, a house divided can not stand. At this point Camelot was becoming a deep pain. How do you stop pain that comes from within. Villians and enemies I can fight but when your own leaders are divided you seem so helpless. When the Citizens see this they hide to weather the storm out and those with ill will to Camelot spring forward to slay this Unicorn of Dreams.
Have I lost Camelot? No, for deep inside my heart is that misty place every good knight goes to do good and save mankind. To ride his white horse and whisk the beautiful damsel from harm. But for protection, I shove it deeper inside and like the magic of this medium, I turn the machine off and stop its madness.
Where do we go from here? I truly am at a lost. I hear both sides but I don't hear the committment. We talk, we plan, we make changes and in some cases we even compromise our beliefs to try and help. Where is it , who or what took it from us? I made a promise so many years ago to the man who started this dream in another universe (Dalnet) that I would defend it and protect it with my very life. Right now I feel I have failed and in some way through friendly fire I have hurt the place I so love to be. Now as a wounded lion, I do as I think I should and protect it the best I can though the actions are harsh. I turn the lights off, lock the doors, batten the windows and hide it in the midst of my heart till such time a sliver of warming light brings it to life. Until that day, all I hear are the bagpipes of the Scottish Highlands echo that call to the Clans for I am dead.
Friday, December 10, 2004
Rainy Day Thoughts
Whew, I am tired now. Just finished hugging a gagillion teddy bears. This year the church is giving some needy kids teddy bears for Christmas and everyone in the church is to hug them .. you know ... a bear with pre-loaded hugs. I laughed as Lew (1 year old) hugged each bear and gave them an added grunt to make it a big hug.
Cruise:
29 Days and Counting. Our tour reservations came back and we got what we wanted. Especially the Whale Watching. I wonder if I could ride one of those monsters ... Hmmmm.
Camelot:
Looks like another channel started up from disgruntled Camelot Citizens. Oh well, chances are they will be hanging around alot while they sit in the other channel whining. My question is .. how cleanly should I cut them off. Ban them till they return? Ban them and never let them back in? And what of the OPs staff that has joined them? Last time that was used to cut/paste channel traffic into their channel to ridicule and grouse about. Never a dull life in the world Channel Founder.
I knew as soon as the guidelines were published a lot of shade tree lawyers would find the holes in the language to exploit them. They are guidelines to help funnel the role play in the direction that Camelot was defined. If some of the people in channel would spend as much time making their character believable as they do trying to dodge the rules / guidelines ... they would be awesome and a pleasure to role play with. The list has been steady as they pass through trying to make a statement. Grow up people and learn to play together.
My Magic IRC server is now up and running. Thanks to Jinxi and Quad for their hard work.
The Christmas season continues as tomorrow is another party. Only this one requires an hour and a half drive to get there. The nearest town has no vacancy in the Motels, so instead of spending the night there, I will drive home, oh well, another late night.
Cruise:
29 Days and Counting. Our tour reservations came back and we got what we wanted. Especially the Whale Watching. I wonder if I could ride one of those monsters ... Hmmmm.
Camelot:
Looks like another channel started up from disgruntled Camelot Citizens. Oh well, chances are they will be hanging around alot while they sit in the other channel whining. My question is .. how cleanly should I cut them off. Ban them till they return? Ban them and never let them back in? And what of the OPs staff that has joined them? Last time that was used to cut/paste channel traffic into their channel to ridicule and grouse about. Never a dull life in the world Channel Founder.
I knew as soon as the guidelines were published a lot of shade tree lawyers would find the holes in the language to exploit them. They are guidelines to help funnel the role play in the direction that Camelot was defined. If some of the people in channel would spend as much time making their character believable as they do trying to dodge the rules / guidelines ... they would be awesome and a pleasure to role play with. The list has been steady as they pass through trying to make a statement. Grow up people and learn to play together.
My Magic IRC server is now up and running. Thanks to Jinxi and Quad for their hard work.
The Christmas season continues as tomorrow is another party. Only this one requires an hour and a half drive to get there. The nearest town has no vacancy in the Motels, so instead of spending the night there, I will drive home, oh well, another late night.
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
Amazing
Work:
I decided to slow down a bit by decreasing the time I spent at the computer store. Seeing as it was the lowest paying job I had, its loss would be not as noticeable. Felt, but not noticeable. Well, since then all my clients have kept he hopping trying to fix their stuff. End result is that I work more and make more. Who was it that said something like do something here and it will equalize over there.
Camelot:
Sometimes I really wonder if it is worth it. People bitch about one thing, I counter by making some changes to help, and now I get the bitching from the other side. I guess Lance had the best solution. Close the goldurn doors for a few days and let them see what life is without Camelot. Hmmmm, should I?
Kids:
What happened to work ethic? You know, like getting to work on time, not spending 15 minutes extra one day and expecting comp time the next day, staying till the job is done, showing a bit of motivation and fixing the things that are broke or in need of repair without being told or given a list everyday. I just don't remember approaching my first job with that attitude. Am I that old and out of touch?
Cruise:
Time is fast approaching for that much needed rest and down time. Why didn't someone point this great thing out when I was younger ... ?
I decided to slow down a bit by decreasing the time I spent at the computer store. Seeing as it was the lowest paying job I had, its loss would be not as noticeable. Felt, but not noticeable. Well, since then all my clients have kept he hopping trying to fix their stuff. End result is that I work more and make more. Who was it that said something like do something here and it will equalize over there.
Camelot:
Sometimes I really wonder if it is worth it. People bitch about one thing, I counter by making some changes to help, and now I get the bitching from the other side. I guess Lance had the best solution. Close the goldurn doors for a few days and let them see what life is without Camelot. Hmmmm, should I?
Kids:
What happened to work ethic? You know, like getting to work on time, not spending 15 minutes extra one day and expecting comp time the next day, staying till the job is done, showing a bit of motivation and fixing the things that are broke or in need of repair without being told or given a list everyday. I just don't remember approaching my first job with that attitude. Am I that old and out of touch?
Cruise:
Time is fast approaching for that much needed rest and down time. Why didn't someone point this great thing out when I was younger ... ?
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